my exstatic life

the next step

2007-04-21T15:59:00.000-04:00

i took another step and this is where i am NOW

i got inspired

2007-04-17T19:51:00.000-04:00

senior year has given me loads of unexpected work these past few months. from 24-7 yearbooking to endless "im going to college" dilemna, i was left with nothing but at least three hours of sleep every night. i cant complain. it was me who chose to put a work-load of APs and a college course along with my regular high school classes. it was the silly me and my very poor time management skills that make my work look triple than it actually is. blame the inner me who can't say no to help somebody despite the amount of crap i have to face after. blame my other half for being so dedicated to anything i put myself in responsible to. blame my heart for being so stupid, making my mind choose physical beating than emotional one. *sigh* this is me.

i got inspired.

as much as i despise writing, giving up this blog probably is the last thing i will do. the work-load i have been having has left me no time to write. well honestly, ive been writing a lot lately for my college class but writing about reactions to compositions of authors i barely know of is not really writing for me. it's more like scribbling and BSing of facts that do not concern my life. writing for me is like what im doing now. despite my inchoate frontal lobes, i find word manipulation as my way to escape reality for a bit and perpend where my life is now. i may fail writing as a course (with strunk and white as my professors), but i can ace my life through writing what i truly feel.

i got inspired.

yes. i got inspired again to continue writing. thanks to a friend whose everyday throughts inspired me deeply. her words encouraged me to free myself from the boundaries of my own contradictions. maybe all this time, this is all i've been missing. something i can share my feelings to knowing it wont bitch at me for being a suck-ass on life. something i know that won't laugh when i spelled a word incorrectly or made a grammatical error. i got inspired so here i am again writing my thoughts away.

for months, i have deprived myself of self expression. so many words left unsaid and so many feelings are left confinded. it's time to reflect on myself once again before i lose track of the person i am becoming.

10 DIFFERENT THINGS ON MY MIND

2007-04-09T09:36:00.000-04:00

1. NYU? Drexel? Stony Brook? Quinnipiac? argggh my college life depends on this decision!
2. thesis paper.. havent started it yet. no thesis, no graduation =/
3. trip to philly on the 14th of april
4. the most anticipated vacation =)
5. '07 graduation [goodbye high school life]
6. my complicated heart and the stupid decisions i made
7. prom.. dress, limo, afterprom!
8. to buy or not to buy a [cellphone, macbook, u2 ipod]??!?
9. senioritis? im in big trouble. slacking off a lot.
10. ap tests on may [im dead]

*spring break is over* =/

how could u?

2007-02-17T22:33:00.000-05:00

BuBBLy pUnK 04 (10:19:48 PM): how could someone u rejected so many times but still stayed by your side?
BuBBLy pUnK 04 (10:22:46 PM): how could u reject someone who is funny, wonderful, smart, totally cute, caring and loving for someone u tried to be with but failed a lot of times?
Mz BaBi GrL (10:23:19 PM): love is one mysterious thing.
Mz BaBi GrL (10:23:29 PM): trust me. you sit down ask yourself so many questions
Mz BaBi GrL (10:23:54 PM): you get frustrated cause youre doing the most stupidestestest thing
Mz BaBi GrL (10:23:56 PM): but in the end
Mz BaBi GrL (10:23:59 PM): what happens?
Mz BaBi GrL (10:24:16 PM): nothing. you sit there all beaten
Mz BaBi GrL (10:24:32 PM): frustrated, with no answer whatsoever.

happines - life

2007-01-26T02:19:00.000-05:00

Happiness is a butterfly, which when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you. ~ Nathaniel Hawthorne

a newly found happiness. a different one.

just a smile. one smile.

life is wonderful. happiness is its purpose.

decisions

2007-01-14T01:56:00.000-05:00

1. i decided to take a peek of my future
2. i decided to free myself
3. i decided to let go of the negative things ive been holding on to
4. i decided to be super happy once again
5. i decided to look beyond my imperfections
6. i decided to leave it all to fate
7. i decided to believe that love is not always a fairy tale with happy ending
8. i decided to prove to myself that im stronger than before
9. i decided to live my life without him
10. i decided to go out there and give myself another chance

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if he's not there to catch you, dont worry... your friends are there waiting and ready for you

thank you. u all kept me going and helped me not to give up. without u guys, i couldnt have gotten through it. im one hell lucky person. i love you guys. =)

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new sketches -> http://drawmyworld.blogspot.com

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finals week. im going hiatus for a while. wish me luck

rebirth

2007-01-03T23:00:00.000-05:00

my abrupt move to New York has given my relatively naive mind many questions. questions that relentlessly bothered my entity and led me to live in query. i struggled every minute adjusting to my new life and adapting to a new different culture became a continuous shock. for thirteen years, i have lived my life with comfort and ease certain that nothing, as in nothing, can spoil such life. unfortunately, my very naive being failed me and reality woke my soul from a very absurd perspective of the existence of a perfect life. one by one, everything in front of me seem fading and i started questioning my existence. i've lost my purpose and the reason to believe that i will ever find the answers to my questions. for three years, i've lived a life of doubt, pretension and uncertainty.

the time came when i lost my sense of direction. i've lived my life the same way everyday without knowing where to go and without considering how one action will affect my future. i stubbornly ignored positive signs and persisted to the thought that im just living a life of survival. no love. no adventure. just a time to get over one thing to another. i gave up on a lot of things including myself.

it wasnt until recently that i realized how stupid i have become. all this time, i chose to be like those people who embraced a "helter-skelter" life. individuals who are dumb enough to let themselves drown without even doing anything about it and depended on the phrase "whatever happens". yes, over the course of time, i changed. the very one thing i feared the first time i stepped a foot on this "land of opportunity". indeed i changed and it is with shame that i changed for the worse.

i felt reasonably dense when a friend had to remind me of how great my life is. the fact that i have a very supportive and loving family and great friends, it is without question that i looked at my life weakly. instead of taking small steps to move on with my life, i perpetuated on the past. a dwelled upon a time which i will not be able to change and a time i could never return to. i have let myself fall into a pit where the more i desperately dig for an escape, the more it leads me to a place of darkness and uncertainty. with this, it will be a greater shame if my very soul will blame it to that something [someone], that [who] pushed me to the pit becuase it was i who let myself so close to the opening that simply by losing balance, i found myself at the bottom.

as i let myself free with all the things in my past, i slowly am letting myself out of the pit. new year is a symbol of a new beginning and one by one im trying to let go of all the things that have become a burden to my journey. maybe it was the idea of letting go that made the whole journey difficult. maybe it was him or maybe it was me. for so long, i've desperately yearned to find the answers when all along, the answers are right in front of me. i have forgotten to open my eyes and to look beyond. but now, it is with great joy and thankfulness to say that i finally found myself once again. a feeling of rebirth, i believe, is the right term to express such.

this is something i've been waiting for. one real fresh start for 2007. hello life! im back indeed!

Letting go

2007-01-01T09:38:00.000-05:00

To let go isn't to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It's not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat.

To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free.

Time heals every wound and pain. It will take a while but everything will be just fine.

merry christmas

2006-12-25T19:38:00.000-05:00

*dec 22*
last day of school before the holiday break. i had fun. like FUN FUN. my AP psych test killed the fun though. the test was gay. hard and ewwwwww.. WELL IT KILLED ME. LOL anyweyz. thanks to all the people who gave me cards and presents. this year is much better than the last one since i was able to give my friends real gifts and cards. I MADE SURE I DID since this will be our last year together. LAST CHRISTMAS with them. =/ btw, all the messages in my cards came from the bottom of my heart. lol LOVE U GUYS and HAVE A GREAT HOLIDAY BREAK. spend it wisely!!! one week is too short to waste any minute.

*dec 23-24*
hershey, pennsylvania on saturday + philadelphia, pennsylvania on sunday. MUCHO MUCHO MUCHO FUN. LOVED philadelphia! THANKS TO MY DAD, MOM, ATE GAYLE, CHARIES, NINONG EFREN, NINANG NETTE, ATE KRING, EWE, KUYA SHERMAN, BAILEY and BLACKIE who all made the trip memorable. [pictures in my multiply]

*christmas eve - dec 25*
best christmas yet =) i got most of the things in my wishlist and i have nothing else to ask for. i've been good the whole year so yeah, i think i do deserve them. lol TO EVERYBODY.. LOVE YOU ALL!!! =)

this is random but last friday, my friend mentioned how people don't sing HAPPY BIRTHDAY to JESUS. so yeah WE THINK it will be great if we do sing HAPPY BIRTHDAY to HIM. so here it goes...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS! HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. DEAR JESUS. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! =) [so that's me singing with my very beautiful voice just for Him]

I LOVE YOU JESUS and THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY LIFE. =)

shocked. stunned. amazed. touched. loved.

2006-12-21T19:50:00.000-05:00

to POLS, KAYCEE, TRISH, COI, CHAMIE & MS ZALI thanks for the cards and gifts! u guys have ur ways to surprise me. man.. i cant explain what i feel right now. gosh.. I LOVE YOU ALL! =)

THANKS GUYS!! I MISS YOU AND SUPER DUPER LOVE YOU ALL!!

i started my week with no energy and no reason to live life, but now, everything seems the other way around.

*edited*

CHRISTMAS WISHLIST 2006

2006-12-10T22:18:00.000-05:00

1. black/brown leather jacket =)
2. bose in-ear headphones
3. tees, sweaters, hoodies, long sleeves, tanks (american eagle, h&m, forever21, pacsun, yrb, hollister, abercrombie n fitch, urban outfitters, gap)
4. rocket dog shoes
5. new cellphone?!? lol (BlackBerry 7105t or Samsung t509s - Plum)
6. cute wallet (pacsun, urban, fossil etc)
7. giorgio armani emporio armani She perfume
8. bvlgari perfume
9. grey's anatomy seasons 1 & 2 dvd collection (LOL)
10. house seasons 1 & 2 dvd collection (another LOL)
11. E.R. series dvd collection (LOL LOL LOL)
12. convertible gloves from urban
13. express jeans (2 or 4 short) LOL
14. slipper socks from urban

those are the ones i can think of for now. more to come i guess. but take ur pick =) hahaha

THANK YOU IN ADVANCE

the fight.. my fight

2006-12-04T22:56:00.000-05:00

Life has meaning only in the struggle
Triumph or defeat is in the hands of the Gods
So let us celebrate the struggle

Each one of us have different things to fight for and once we found what that thing is, we have this feeling that we'll get through this fight no matter what. We fight like hell and we dont stop fighting until the battle is won. But what if you know what you're fighting for but you also know there's no way you'll win the battle? You're fighting against time. You're fighting against distance. You're fighting fate. Would you give up and lose the one thing your fighting for and let it disappear in thin air?

I would give anything for the chance to fight for someone I care for. But now, I dont really know if it is still worth it. I've been in this battle for many years now and it seems endless. I'm tired. I'm ready to give up any moment. I have barely enough strength to keep going.

Your image remains the final core of my strength. Please do come and fight this battle with me. I promise I'll hold on as long as I can. I promise I'll stay with you till the end. Just please come and save me..

because once I stop fighting, I'll stop living.

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first snow day of the year

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i love how the cold breeze brushes off my face, but ill be a hypocrite if i say that this same coldness brings melancholy in the air.

where are you?

2006-11-26T22:33:00.000-05:00

I MISS YOU...<3

happy turkey day

2006-11-24T01:55:00.000-05:00

i just finished watching the LAKE HOUSE with my cousin and sister. it's actually my second time but it didnt fail to make me want to see it again and again. =)

thanksgiving was fun. family and friends came over my house for one hearty dinner. well not really hearty coz some of them are just full of cholesterol. hahaha I AM STUFFED.. with TURKEY, STUFFINGS, BEEF BRISKET, CORN, MASHROOM, GARLIC BREAD, TUNA CASSEROLE, SHRIMP, NEW YORK CHEESE CAKE, FRUIT CAKE, FRUIT SALAD, ROOTBEER, COKE, ORANGE SODA, GINGER ALE. i just gained freakin 20 pounds. haha who cares anyweyz, thanksgiving is about getting FAT-er. =)

few weeks from now, a year will pass and a new will come. always something to be thankful for. and yeah of course, the mornings we get to wake up and spend the time with our family, friends and the ones we love. THANK YOU GOD FOR THE LIFE YOU'VE GIVEN ME. I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO ASK FOR.

the flip pride

2006-11-19T01:30:00.000-05:00

PACQUIAO WON!!! woohoo!!

flip pride is in its maximum level again. pacquiao had morales down after 3 rounds, which is freagin awesome!! hahaha GO PACQUIAO! =)

im in my highest level of hyperness as well. why? i got all stimulated by a medium cup french vanilla dunkachino. while waiting for the fight to start, my cousins and i decided to take a walk and grab some coffee to wake us up. i love the weather too. they said it's cold, but for me, it was perfect! so yeah, we just watched the fight and went home.

my state of alertness is so high that i dont know how am i able to go to bed. it sucks coz i have to wake up early tomorrow too. STONY BROOK VISIT tomorrow and we have to leave early. im dead =/

im still trying to hold on. with all the school work and activities i've been getting, im just hoping that my body could keep up with them. all these "hard work" and "persistence" are all for my inspirations in life: my family, my friends, and everyone i love and super duper love. im lucky to have them.. i mean im lucky to have you guys. GOD REALLY DOES LOVE ME. you guys are the living proof. =)

*i have this crazy idea. im just gonna make a new layout. haha how about that? sounds great right? hahaha*

a week to remember

2006-11-17T22:11:00.000-05:00

one of the craziest week of my life.. i love senior year!!

saturday: i went with my mom to Fordham University at Lincoln center to attend the presidential reception. i consider the president's message as one of the most inspiring speech in my life.
- pictures -

sunday: did stuff with the fam, i just cant remember. lol

monday: same old monday.

tuesday: not another tuesday. a truth revealed. a difficult decision. a future to consider.

wednesday: "if only i could shut down my brain for a week"

thursday: i was back volunteering after 2 weeks of doing yearbook stuff. we have a new playroom!! oo how i missed the kids so much

friday: jen's birthday. applebees. hyperness with tiff. I LOVE FRIDAYS!!
- pictures -

[random thoughts]
- people hate u when they start copying u. from clothes u wear to everything about u. * "Trust yourself. Think for yourself. Act for yourself. Speak for yourself. Be yourself. Imitation is suicide" *
- decisions scare the hell out of me
- are u sure u'll wait? i dont think so
- u make my life complicated and emo
- i need vacation. but im pretty sure im getting a nice one soon =)

rub the hippo's nose for luck

2006-11-09T17:01:00.000-05:00

TUESDAY = ELECTION DAY + GEORGE WASHINGTON UNIVERSITY VISIT

what i like about GWU

the university is B-E-A-UTIFUL!!!

washington d.c. is the perfect place for me, it's a city like NYC but with a lot less people

no rushed life in d.c.

hippo the unofficial mascot haha

has prehealth profession program

dorm life!! yeah =)

what i hate about GWU

they are more into political science studies and business than health professions

there's no way i can come home every week =/

i'll be really really far from my family and friends =/

GW is still my top choice but im still considering other schools. besides, the acceptance rate of this university is freagin 37%. considered as one of the most selective schools. oh my.. oh my. =/ im just hopin for the best

the trip was really fun!!! thanks to my dad, mom, ninong efren and ninang nette who went with me. 4 1/2 hour drive down to washington isnt the most pleasant thing, but they still supported me. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH! :)

more GWU pictures

next stop will be STONY BROOK UNIVERSITY! cant wait =)

sushi bum

2006-11-04T22:10:00.000-05:00

three more months till I finally finish all these college apps crap!

but for now.. im trying to enjoy every minute of free time i have. yep yep. school work is still a lot + clubs and yeah, the yearbook is also taking most of my time. i missed a week of volunteering. i miss the kids soo much. =/ but i can do this. I JUST NEED TO GET THEM ALL OVER WITH.

im like FULL FULL right now. just came home from long island. i went to eat at international buffet with the fam. WOAH!! that place is heaven. haha ate mostly japs food. awesome!! all u can eat sushi baby!! haha

i cant wait till tuesday. a trip George Washington University! yay yay!! soooo excited! =)

new song guys. I LOVEEEE this song. =)

to all my fellow LASALLIANS updated

2006-11-02T18:00:00.000-05:00

Let us pray for the soul of Bro. Rafael "Rafe" S. Donato FSC. An avid supporter of artists, a true intellectual, and a man with a beautiful soul who made such a great impact on so many La Sallians in more ways than anyone could ever imagine. Please take a minute and pray that he has found eternal peace with our Lord.

more from Lasallian News with video taken two days after Bro Rafe's Golden Jubilee Celebration.

I spent twelve years of my life studying in LaSalle Lipa. Throughout those years, Bro Rafe was the leader i looked up to and i admired. I was in first grade when I first met him. He requested all class presidents to meet him personally. I was the only first grader who came and everyone else was either in 6th grade or in high school. But Bro Rafe treated me as if I wasn't a first grader. He talked to me not as a seven year old but as a true leader. Bro Rafe inspired me to become a good leader and to continue my service not only to my fellow LaSallians but to other people as well. Thank You Bro Rafe.

go VIOLETS!

2006-10-28T23:12:00.000-04:00

eh BOBCATS.. LOL

that's one of the NYU trivias i learned today. the nyu symbol, a violet, used to be their team sign as well. but since, a violet wasnt wild enough compare to like tigers or lions, they changed it to a bobcat and that's like another story. lol enough about that, i've had enough of nyu stuff. although the day was gloomy and rainy, my mom and i went to the admission information + campus tour at nyu today. went to visit the dorms and the classrooms i will probably spend the next four years of my life if i get accepted. but im still not sure, i want to keep my options open. im not really in a hurry. i still have a lot of schools to visit and i think the next stop will be boston college. well of course it's at boston massachussetts and my parents, being the wonderful parents they are, will take me there on the 7th. YAY! i cant wait. =)

if today was good, yesterday was awesome
spent the day with noel and watched saw III. the movie was ok, but really disgusting! i loved the part when they show how to cut open a conscious patient's head. the movie also showed how to drill a skull! SURGEON STATUS here! hahahaha but yeah, we also ate some waffles at this restau near union square. went to soho and i get to see random selling of this funny shirt that says, ["FUCK THIS HAT."-knucklehead kids] with a picture of this ugly hat that is rainbow colored. if you are an nyc kid, u probably see it all over the place. lol hhhhmm what else happened? went to virgins and then watch this "magic" show at the park. very cold day it was but it was still fun. *poke* U! thanks! =)

my weekend is flying so fast and like i have a lot of stuff to do. SAT math level II is next week and i havent reviewed yet. need to correct my second paper and i have to start the third one. parts of college apps are due nov 12 for me. SHIT!! havent done anything yet. eeek =/ GOOD LUCK TO ME! HELLLLLPPPPP!!

the perfect soundtrack

2006-10-26T00:31:00.000-04:00

yep.. new song again. my life's perfect soundtrack, well at least for now. haha check out the lyrics. AWESOME STUFF =)

a lot of things are happening and yeah i feel like im juggling 10 different things. believe me, it's like crazy hard and crazy weird.

but this picture makes everything better though

my niece brea

im hoping that im gonna see her soon.. and my kuya and my ate. =)

stomach ache =/

2006-10-24T17:07:00.000-04:00

I did not go to school today. TERRIBLE TERRIBLE STOMACH ACHE IT IS. i hate having stomach ache and the worse thing about it is that i've been living my life with stomach ache as my companion. from peptic ulcer to indigestion problems, it just wont leave me alone. =/

spent the whole day sleeping and watching tv though. that's like the only good part about having stomach ache. LOL :D

*WHISPERING BACK*
[pauleen: glads! how was the SAT? you did bad? di ako naniniwala. haha]

(gLaDiEs: pols! lol believe me it was terrible! like halfway through, I was ready to give up. had a terrible headache too! lol i miss you =])

[trish: im eating dinner bloghopping and doing the business case for accounting all at the same time and i just wanted to say that i miss yeah! =D]

(gLaDiEs: trish!! good luck sau! im sure ull ACE everything! kw pa! i miss you too!)

[cathie: may korean/french/german listening with whatever pa ba? lol]

(gLaDiEs: lol wla eh. pero i felt like meron nun kc ndi ko nagets ung binsa ko. feeling ko eh foreign language un. haha TC cathie!)

[leo: sexy......ok mga schools ahhh???gud luck]

(gLaDiEs: *looks around* leo! u talking to me? lol. nabuhay ka! long time no talk. msta? tc always!)

[`p-a-t--: gladys! misyah! tc ha!]

(gLaDiEs: pat!!! miss yah n din!! tc din! =])

[aaron: gladys! wala lang. yay!]

(gLaDiEs: AARON!! wla din lng. haha miss you! =])

[patsy: hi gladys! =)]

(gLaDiEs: hi patsy!! tka cnong patsy to? coz i know a lot of patsy. hehe tc kw!)

new song btw guys. I LOVE IT! =)

this week is like one of the best..

2006-10-20T22:22:00.000-04:00

wednesday: senior assembly + 07 class picture + pep rally

more pictures in my multiply =)

friday: the departed + johnny rockets + the walk to union tpke + mawbear

i was exhausted in class though. PROPS to my TWINNERS who shared her REDBULL! lol luv you twinners! =)

breaking the silence

2006-10-17T20:25:00.000-04:00

The price of hating other human beings is loving oneself less ~Eldridge Cleaver, Soul on Ice, 1968

i tried to deal with it silently, but u pushed me hard enough. i tried to be a good friend and all u did was take advantage of me. if u really are a good friend, you wouldnt let things affect our friendship. u dont deserve me nor my friendship. but i dont really care anymore. i still have a life to deal with and i dont need drama.

sorry guys, i just want to let this out of my system.

PEP RALLY tomorrow! and MOVIES on friday!! YAY! =)

friday the 13th

2006-10-13T21:55:00.000-04:00

i dont believe that such day brings bad luck to people. i have so many reasons why and i can definitely prove them.

SAT tomorrow! WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. im flipin out right now! =|

GOOD LUCK TO ME! =/

*shoutout*
NOEL! *poke* thanks for the awesome time and yeah for the malaysian food. i definitely had a great time =) *hugz*

new month + new stuff + old wicked school week

2006-10-07T22:37:00.000-04:00

oct 2, monday
Yom Kippur (Jewish Holiday) NO SCHOOL!! =)

oct 3, tuesday
college now teacher was absent so i didnt go to school early. the whole day was fast and i did the usual things i have to do. after class, i met up with my twinners, chun, melissa, steph and sabrina at Qdoba. went back to school to attend the yearbook meeting. the creative design editor didnt show up so i have to wait till she calls me for the "photoshop test" that i need to take. =/ jamaica hospital was my next stop, stayed there for an hour something. lol but the surprise didnt not come until that night. somebody came back and yeah i didnt expect it. yesterday, i realized that there's no chance at all. too complicated. =/

oct 4, wednesday
i cant remember what happened this day. i supposed this is just another usual day

oct 5, thursday
just like the 4th

oct 6, friday
stayed up one period to wait for justin. i was supposed to hangout with tiff and ronald at the SO office but i decided to check out some college stuff. luckily, one of the college counselors was offering a "how to fill out apps" workshop. lol so yeah i stayed there till the period ended. i met up with justin outside the school and we went straight to the mall. the bus ride with jay and jonathan was crazy weird. three of the smartest kids in school cant figure how to answer an SAT question. lol anyweyz, first stop at the mall was the pretzel place. there we met up with two cool new friends, noel and sam. awesome guys they are and really funny too. went to eat at the food court to get some real food and justin tasted his first taco bell. haha. from the mall, went to best buy for noel's cd. then back again to the mall to basically window shop. i had fun this day. big THANKS and HUGS to justin, sam and noel. you guys are the best =)

oct 7, saturday
back at the mall with my sister this time. went shopping for some new clothes and ate some steak quesadilla and taco salad at qdoba. sister bonding is always fun. i love it =)

oct 8, sunday (today) lol
today i was back at the mall again. dad wanted to shop at macys so yeah i was at the mall for three consecutive days. lol

NO SCHOOL

TOMORROW!

LET'S PARTY!

2006-10-03T20:16:00.000-04:00

I CANNOT STOP

SMILING =)

down to 7 choices

2006-09-29T21:22:00.000-04:00

finally after thousands of colleges & universities, months of college research, two college fairs, college visits and millions of questions asked, im finally down to the top seven schools of my choice

my top two choices

1. George Washington University (Washington DC)
2. New York University (NY)
3. SUNY Stony Brooke / Binghamton (NY)
4. Rochester Institute of Technology (NY)
4. University of the Sciences in Philadelphia (PA)
6. CUNY Honors City College / Brooklyn (NYC)
7. Quinnipiac University (CT)

all i need is to do good on the SAT and make sure that I will write a good personal statement so I can get accepted to at least two of these choices. *cross fingers*

i was back at the movie theaters with my friend omar today. this time, we watched Jet Li's Fearless. the movie is actually good. i specifically liked the overall setting and how they portrayed early 1900s china. they definitely do have an interesting culture. overall, it's a 4/5 stars.

my planner is actually filled with due dates.. paper # 2 due for english class, personal statement due, the new york times college scholarship essay due, blah blah blah.. i dont know where to start. im like clueless right now. o lord help me =/

special shout out to EDWIN! i hate you for letting go of my umbrella! i almost hit the door of my statistic class because of u! ASS! LOL LOL [nice sneakers btw]

im tired.. im sleepy.. im out

better

2006-09-23T08:46:00.000-04:00

it is not often that i get to sleep early at night. i mean early early as in before 12. one instance was last night, i came home like around nine, played underground with my sisters, ate junk and boom i fell asleep instantly. i wasnt tired or anything, maybe it's just because i only get at least 2-4 hours of sleep during weekdays. then i realized that i really do need to do my homework like early early. before 11 i mean. lol

i've been watching movies every friday with my friend omar. friday for us is like our movie + hangout day. well last friday, we went to watch this movie called "The Protector" and please do not waste your $10. it really was a cheesy movie and the actors.. they cannot even act properly. I understand that it's an original Thai movie but for international movies like that, it should at least reach one star in american standards, but it didnt. anyweyz, yesterday, we went to watch "The Illusionist". It was a long movie but it has a very interesting plot. It has a lot of twists and turns that made the ending really shocking. ill give it a 3.5. im sorry for this really bad movie review LOL

grey's anatomy kicked ass on their season premiere last thursday! it's a MUST see and NOT to miss tv show. WAHHHH!! =)

my throat is not giving out good signs. i think im gonna be sick. =/

random moment yesterday
Tiff: come on, you deserve better than that

but do i really deserve someone better?

death came and said hi to me

2006-09-16T01:21:00.000-04:00

it's just so weird how when you talk about death, the next thing we know is it visited us to say hello. if u have been reading my previous posts, i mentioned death more than once already, the last two posts having the previous ones. and now im writing about it again.

sept 14, 2006 - 4:30 pm
i just finished volunteering and i was on my way to sign out. i crossed the street, looking to the right first, seeing nothing i continued. in a split second when i looked to my left, a car is moving backwards... and fast. if i didnt looked that way, the car could have hit me. luckily, it missed me about an inch or two. i was dumbfounded and cant believe to what just happened. that car could have hit me and i could have died right there and then but the driver just continued driving as if she didnt see me. i kept walking mouth hanging with my ipod still playing. i prayed.

i decided not to take the bus and just walk. it was a long one, but it definitely gave me a lot of time to reflect. life is indeed short and unpredictable. the point that i just came from playing with the children i consider angels, being hit by a car is the very last thing in my mind, particularly in the unconscious part of my brain. after that experience, i could have just stayed in the middle of the street with eyes wide open and mouth hanging, but i kept walking. what made me? the fact that i was still alive and can still walk; no scratch, no wound nor broken bones. i am still in one piece and that i should be thankful for.

that night, i didnt waste any time and said hi to the people i havent talked nor seen for a long time. idk why i did that. maybe reality just hit me that what happened to me that day can happen anytime. that life isnt always about school, having fun nor our daily activities. life is something more than that and once we waste it we cant do anything once it is taken away from us. at least take some time for more important stuff. i mean stuff that we dont usually do. instead of taking the same direction to go home, take another direction and see what's gonna happen. let's be open to a lot of possibilities and choices life has offered us. we're all gonna go someday but as long as we're still here, let's make the most out of it. take advantage and take control. dont let others influence us negatively and vice versa.

we're more vulnerable than we think we are and we dont have a choice but to admit it. we'll not gonna learn how to live life not unless we accept who we are. we all have flaws but we also do have our talents and our bests. let's not wish to be somebody else coz each one of us has something to offer. let's go make some good decisions and go wherever life will take us. if we dont, we're just like old plain rocks in the middle of the street waiting for a truck to smash us into pieces.

take this time to say hello to people we havent talked to or seen for a long time. tell them how special they are to us and how much you love them. it doesnt matter if it will look homo, all that matters is that u sent the message out.

this is a shout out to everyone i know, i met once, i share memories with, i hugged before, i kissed once twice or many times and for the people i care for and love. HELLO to all of you and i hope everything is going great. i'll see you when i see you.

peace guys im out to show some more love =)

thank you

2006-09-13T19:52:00.000-04:00

i just wanted to THANK everyone who remembered my birthday. from online party to "battery killer" calls, myspace to friendster and of course through this blog, the greetings and warm wishes you sent just made me feel like i could have died right there and then out of happiness =)

anyweyz, to all my SUPER FRIENDS in the philippines, I MISS YOU ALL GUYS and I'LL DEFINITELY GONNA SEE YOU SOON! im so excited =)wahhh

to all franny lew people, THANKS for giving me such an awesome birthday. thanks for the hugs and the kisses and the ice cream cake and the nemo stuff toy and for the cards too. i love u guys.. so much!

i have so much to be thankful for but there's so much, not even five posts could hold everything up. =) to keep everything straight and simple, I'm very thankful that im still alive, waving and kicking every freakin' day. thankful that i have my family, friends and everyone who loves me for who i am. thankful for another year He has given me to learn more, experience more, enjoy more and live more. haha.

seventeen.. it's gonna be a tough year. i know, i can feel it. but i have to keep everything positive. so yep, seventeen will be an exciting year for me. =)

Mis cumpleaños =)

2006-09-12T12:00:00.000-04:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

the longest week ever

2006-09-08T22:48:00.000-04:00

this is so far the longest week of my life

tuesday (the first day)
instead of waking up at 5, i woke up 36 minutes late. apparently, i didnt get to set my cellphone's alarm on. so yeah, i had to take a really quick shower and wasnt able to eat breakfast. spent the whole day with old friends, met new ones and yeah got to meet my teachers too. i remember feeling like a crap that day. believe me, it wasnt because of the crowd, in fact the only reason i look forward to go back to school is because of my friends. yeah, for me that's one hell of a reason. lol anyweyz, as i was saying, i felt like crap that day because i felt like the day will not gonna end. i was only on my 2nd class at 8 am and i already wanted to go home and sleep. my last class also took forever to come. it was a very very long day for me.

wednesday (second day)
bad weather + slow hours = really LONG and CRAPPY day

thursday and friday (third and fourth day)
went a little faster but still slow and long

taking 7 classes everyday without break nor lunch isnt fun at all. first i have to worry not to be late for my first period class or else i will be mark absent. second, they serve breakfast 10 minutes before the classes start, that doesnt include the 5 minutes we waste just waiting on line. literally, we have to shove everything in our mouth just to get in class on time. lol

college now english - not a fun class. since it's english101 we have to do a lot of writing everyday. im not a good writer, in fact i hate writing. doing this stuff at 7:15 is really a nightmare. the only thing that keeps me in this class is the fact that im gonna get at least 6 college credits by the end of the year! yay! =)

ap statistics - ms V is awesome! the class isnt that interesting for me since my first choice was to take AP calculus instead. but thinking about my sched made me stay in the class. AP cal will just give me double the headache if ill take it. besides, jouleni and natalie are in my class which is like a big big plus. haha

photography - my nap period. i sit all the way at the back of the lab and my teacher has this squeeky babyish voice that i cant stand so i tend to not pay attention and just fall asleep. lol so yeah, we're still in art basics anyweyz so everything is cooll and im not missing any biggie. =)

spanish 3rd year - i consider myself really lucky to get her. for the past 2 years of learning spanish, i havent gotten a teacher as amazing and good as her. i dont worry about my regents on june anymore. i know she's gonna make everything possible. =)

ap psychology - this class depresses me. besides the fact that my teacher cant really teach, we're required to read A LOT everyday. im not a book person and forcing me to read long stuff will just make everything worse. im planning to drop it and take ap chemistry instead. but it might change the rest of my schedule and that's the last thing i want to happen. what am i gonna do?? i dont know =/

weight training - i have bartilucci as my teacher. he is one of the nicest phys ed teacher in school so im happy to have him. =)

american government - another great teacher. ms grynberg can definitely teach! ill definitely pass the government regents this january! that's two for me! hoooray! =)

after school, i go straight to volunteering. i got placed to the pediatrics section and it's the most amazing thing ever! the kids are awesome and the work isnt that bad. i just have to look out for the kids and keep them in the playroom. im becoming a pro in childcare. or should i say babysitting. LOL from daycare to pediatrics department. woohoo! haha. but im definitely loving it, although im all tired and cranky after a long day at school, their smiles just turn everything downside up. they bring back the joy in me and boost my energy back to its highest level. it's just amazing how these innocent ones can change ur day big time.

school isnt that busy yet. clubs arent starting yet but im sure the next following weeks will be the most stressful weeks of my senior year. goodluck to me! =/

summer 06

2006-09-04T22:59:00.000-04:00

sept 4 2006, 11:00 pm - summer officially ends because school starts tomorrow. NOOOOO!!

my summer.. what really happened to me all summer? was my summer fun? worth keeping? full of memories? it went by fast though, really fast. it seems like it was only yesterday that i was taking pictures with my friends coz it's the last day of junior year. the 6 week-college class for me also went by fast. like i didnt even realize that i finished the course with an A on my college transcript. lol but i can definitely say that this summer is full of memories. besides the flings and stupid moment killers, i got to spend time with new friends, really close friends and with the special friends too. i tried things that i havent done before and yeah i got to go to the most amazing places. i have to admit that there were sad moments too but i know those are part of the whole summer experience.

summer 06.. i have to say that it was fun, worth keeping and definitely full of memories.

have to set my alarm clock at 5 am again. crap. oo wellz, SENIOR YEAR, here i come! =)

live life and make a difference

2006-08-26T14:43:00.000-04:00

*edited*
i spent my saturday surfing the web [as if i dont do it everyday LOL] while eating the gummy colas i bought from economy candy shop by essex st. but today is just a really special one though. as i was browsing around, i saw my first friendster account in one of my friends' list. i still have pictures taken last year and yeah i havent updated it for a long time. i was in the mood to read the testimonials and i just realized that some of them are missing. like i remember a lot of testimonials my friends gave me and they're not there. tsk tsk tsk. i dont know why. anyweyz, i had fun reading the first ten testimonials i got so into it that i kept going and going. reading them just brought back a lot of memories and each one of them melted my heart. it's been two years since my friends wrote these testimonials and it's just really great to look back.

been thinking a lot of stuff lately and my goals in life became part of those stuff. i dont have a lot actually, just the basics like to be a pediatrician someday and help those people who are in need. but the thought of dying came up to me and i know none of us know when will be our time to go. but what if i dont get to finish everything? what if im in the middle of it and i died? hhhhmm. pretty disappointing eh? yep indeed it will be. i reevaluated my life and it left me with my OFFICIAL GOAL IN LIFE and that is.. LIVE AN EXTRAORDINARY LIFE THAT WOULD SOMEHOW TOUCH AT LEAST ONE PERSON'S LIFE AND EVENTUALLY LEAVE A MARK IN THIS WORLD SAYING THAT I EXISTED AND MADE A DIFFERENCE.

im going to be in a hiatus for a while. private stuff it is. so this post serves as my temporary goodbye to blogging world. ill be back though and that's for sure. =)

a week that was

2006-08-25T11:22:00.000-04:00

monday: watched movies [carlos mencia, allie g & tuesdays with morrie] at izra's place; then to the city

tuesday: back to brooklyn to watch ladder 49

wednesday: the city; babysat my sister

thursday: NYU visit; grays papaya hotdogs with pina colada; sneaker shop hunting; economy candy shop!!; searched for the greatest donutshop ever to eat coconut creme filled donut; NOHO; SOHO; [thanks to my best cousin john]

friday: hangout with marifelle and nicole; malaysian and thai food at main street; bowling at whitestone lanes; arcade at smiles; bubble tea at Sago; came home an hour late

what a week! let the weekend be my rest day. LOL =]

joy and frustration

2006-08-23T21:19:00.000-04:00

this is my joy. words cant explain how i truly enjoy life whenever i eat this ice cream. lol it basically represents everything fun i do during the summer. stuff that i do to keep everything COOL and SWEET! =]

this is my frustration. whenever i receive this yellow postcard during the summer, it only means two things, GOODBYE SUMMER and HELLO SCHOOL. the school sends this card at least 2 weeks before the school starts to let us know when we can get our programs for the coming school year. reality check: i have to go to school whether i like or not and yeah there are other seasons besides summer. im not excited neither glad to go back.

if it is not for my joy, i might have reached insanity even after taking a glimpse of my frustration. *sigh*

new layout

2006-08-20T01:34:00.000-04:00

when everything else fails right in front of us...

sometimes, all we can do is BREATHE, WISH and WAIT for a better tomorrow.

brooklyn bridge park

2006-08-17T16:11:00.000-04:00

HEAVEN - Any of the places in or beyond the sky conceived of as domains of divine beings; A condition or place of great happiness and delight.

by the last definition, i can say that i was at heaven today. the nice view of the river and the brooklyn bridge + cool breeze + big trees for shade + children's laughter + a friend + conversation about life all add up to my perfect view of heaven.

i never have thought that i would be in that place. i've never seen such view that makes me feel like LIFE is so perfect. there's truly more to life than what we're experiencing now. it's just that we dont look deeper and we tend to look more on the negative side of it.

who ever thought that a simple park at brooklyn heights, hidden behind two buildings, can change a person's life? dont believe me? coz im pretty sure it changed mine.

especial thanks to izra who brought me there. thanks. your place is truly heaven. =]

-confuse-

2006-08-15T17:21:00.000-04:00

"Sometimes I'm confused by what I think is really obvious. But what I think is really obvious obviously isn't obvious..." - Michael Stipe

is it the people around us who confuse us or

is it us who confuse ourselves?

talladega nights

2006-08-10T18:07:00.000-04:00

i survived my college NOW class!! hooray! =]

took the finals this morning.. it wasnt that bad at all, it was just long and tiring. i felt like i had a 2 mile run after i took it, very exhausting indeed. but it was nothing compared to yesterday's work, we were behind at least 3 sections so my professor just gave out everything within 2 hours. plus we were kind of required to attend a review session for the finals. so yeah i was at school till 6. phewww. i just wish ill pass the finals and get those 3 college credits. im really really GLAD it's over and yep i did survive my first college class! =]

after a quick party crashing [haha. yep! i ate and ran!], i went to meet ACon at the movies. talladega nights: the ballad of ricky bobby was the target! the movie was alright. we were actually expecting more from will ferell. ill give it 3 1/2 stars out of 5 of course. lol

summer class is over, next thing to do? volunteer! im scheduled to have an interview tomorrow at jamaica hospital. hopefully ill get in and work in the pediatrics section! woohoo! that would be fun! KIDS! =]

it's HOUSE time! =]

silence

2006-08-07T18:39:00.000-04:00

"why are u quiet?"
"nothing.. i just have nothing else to say."

-silence-

"why are u quiet"?
"because im comfortable"

psst.. yes you skater! thanks! it was a great day! =]

feels awesome

2006-08-05T01:07:00.000-04:00

It's time to move on.
Yes, you two had a genuine connection,
but your lives have taken you in diametrically opposite directions.
It's time to accept that and live in the now.

I did move on and now, im living my life as if there's no tomorrow. really feels awesome. =]

* stay cool... get ACon! *

BP here we come! =]

heat wave

2006-08-01T21:18:00.000-04:00

heat wave it is. it's better to stay inside the house than to go outside. the outside is like an oven, i cant even breathe. it's actually 97 degress outside but it feels like 100 something because of the humidity. i hate this weather!!

since it's really hot outside, AC are getting too much power. 4 ACs on + pc + tv = power trip. now i have to turn off my pc and make a sacrifice. lol. id rather miss my pc than die from heat. lol.

anyweyz. despite the really hot weather, i still went to the park to meet alex. instead of playing handball and learning how to skateboard, i just sat on this spot where there was shade and watched alex play with this other guy. i was still sweating though. so yeah. we ended up just staying on the same spot and chill.

thanks alex. i had a great time. =]

the weather will be worse tomorrow. good luck to me! i need to bring my inhaler, in case. lol. =]

truth or dare

2006-07-30T23:31:00.000-04:00

been playing this TRUTH OR DARE stuff with my friends via myspace. it's fun and interesting actually. got to get a lot of interesting answers. lol lol. and NOPE, i cant share them with you. but u can try it.

Truth or Dare

I dare you...
to tell me the truth..

Six things you wonder about me
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.

Five things you like about me
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.

Four things you don't like about me
1.
2.
3.
4.

Three of my best features
1.
2.
3.

Two words that describe me
1.
2.

One question for me (ask away, I will answer honestly)
1.

I dare you to tell the person who posted this bulletin the absolute truth of how you feel about them. I mean everything that you think about them. Just do it.

Send it in a private message and then if you have the guts, repost this question to see what people think of you. You think you're up to it? TELL THE ABSOLUTE TRUTH

HAVE FUN!! =]

there is none

2006-07-27T23:46:00.000-04:00

im just glad it's thursday. last day of school and the day i get to overwhelm myself with online stuff and movies! lol.

i basically procrastinated with my work last week and it was fun actually. but then it got me back with something worse. tuesday night, i had to do 4 sections of homework and im not talking about 5 problem homework, each section has at least 20-30 problems! it made me crazy like hell! i looked at numbers as if they were chinese characters. lol. too much work. a high school student like me can take the college knowledge but not the work itself. cant imagine myself in college having 2 hours of sleep everyday and a workload a group of high school students cant even handle. life.. makes me *sigh* a lot.

had a quiz yesterday and a test today. so yeah, test day means early lunch. my friend tiffany and i finished an hour early again, so we decided to go to this thai restaurant we saw the other day. the food.. dont need to ask coz they were really great. i had some pho and she had some phad thai. awesome stuff!

really humid today but it didnt stop me from meeting another friend by 34th st. did some window shopping, tried out clothes, laughing while walking and eating again. fun fun fun!! doing those after school makes everything really seems nothing. all the tiredness in my body just went woooosshh.. out of my system. =]

as u can hear, i put a new song. hhhmm.. this song struck me hard when i first listened to it. the lyrics may seem depressing but i just can relate to it. the thing with us, music lovers, we tend to experience life and relieve memories through songs.. through their lyrics and rhythm. that once we hear a song we can totally relate in, it stays on us like a scar. reminding us that once in our lives, we got to experience pain and became vulnerable.

I want to write a song about our love, but there is none.
I want to write a song about our love, but there is none.

family stuff

2006-07-24T21:31:00.000-04:00

pictures of the day:

[L-R first pic top: younger sister charies, older sister gayle, only brother kuya philip, me; bottom: dad and mom, brother and his wife ate Tuesday; second picture: our little angel brea]

yeah.. family stuff. my family is getting bigger and im lovin it! i love them mucho mucho! =]

a lot of stuff

2006-07-24T00:46:00.000-04:00

red sent me this text message and i think it's really hilarious. it says, NORA AUNOR is a good singer. Pass to 100 friends. Kng d mgkakaroon k ng "live mole with hair" sa pisngi bukas! [Or else you'll develop a "live mole with hair" on ur cheeks tomorrow!] Dis is true! Pls dont ignore! HAHA!! this one is like one of those chain messages in which they scare you that your mom will die if you dont send this. all i can say is.. B***S**T!!! LOL. it's just funny how people actually fall for this stuff. no offense meant ronel. lol.

the season ender of My Fair brady was really nice! i feel so happy for adrienne especially after all those tough times of persuading chris to marry her!!! LOL LOL LOL! cant wait for the next season. =]

it's summer and there's so much stuff to do. especially when reality hit me regarding SATs and college applications. july will be over soon as in SOOOOON!! and it sucks coz it also means that i have to start reviewing for my finals and yeah for the SAT! a friend adviced me to do college applications as soon as they are available online. crap. just thinking about it makes me go crazy. but im also thinking to do stuff the old ways, which means CRAMMING! lol. coz i tend to do stuff faster when I cram. lol. another problem is that there's so much choices, i dont even know which college i wanna go to! stay with my dream school or go away and live in college dorms. hhhhmm. tough decision isnt it!? but i also realize that i cant make that decision yet since im not even sure if ill get into those colleges. lol. SILLY ME!! haha

hhhmm. what else? oo yeah the riddle. ok. here's a riddle a friend gave me. i think it's really interesting so here it is:

"Imagine you are driving through a severe hurricane and at a bus stop you see three people: a dying old lady, your best friend and the love of your life. You only have room in your car for one person. Who do you pick up?"

interesting isn't it!? any answers? comment box or IM me. lol.

ym server is down

2006-07-23T00:58:00.000-04:00

yahoo sucks!!! the server is down and it's weekend man! crap.

got nothing else to say. [for the first time. lol] i have a terrible headache after the trip to manhattan. crap. oo wellz. laters.

update:
yahoo is up and running again! WOOHOO!!! =]

tuesdays with morrie

2006-07-20T23:42:00.000-04:00

been busy with summer school these past few days. professor roberts gives us a lot of work everyday. quizzes and tests arent included yet in those works which means i really have to squeeze in at least an hour in between those tons of math problems to study for a quiz or test. but so far, im enjoying yoga and volleyball. had a bad experience in volleyball today though. got hit by the ball twice by the same guy. the first hit wasnt that bad since it only hit me by the shoulders but the second hit was terrible, it went straight to my face fast and hard. my face went numb and my cheekbones now are pretty swollen. :[

anyweyz. the hour long train ride going to school and the hour back are the perfect hours for me to catch up with my reading. i finished reading memoirs of a geisha and this book called tuesdays with morrie. i like both of them. but the latter is really heart melting and i almost cried while i was reading the end part. anyweyz. speaking of memoirs of a geisha, i finally saw the movie version of it. when it was first shown in cinemas, i refused to watch it since i havent read the book yet. it turned out to be a good decision though. the movie was nothing compared to the book itself. they cut a lot of scenes and they changed parts of the story. im glad i read the book first.

here are excerpts from the book Tuesdays with Morrie. All of these are lines said by the dying professor, Morrie Swartchz. [i hope you give at least a minute or two to read this part since this book actually teaches us stuff we need to live life]

Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else.

So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, to your community and to yourself to create something that gives you purpose and meaning.

Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them too-even when you're in the dark. Even when you're falling.

Do what Buddhists do. Every day, have a little bird on your shoulder that asks, 'Is today the day? Am I ready? Am I doing all i need to do? Am i being the person i want to be?

Dont cling to things, becoz everything is impermanent.

You never hear people say, "I wish I were sixty-five." - ... that reflects unstatisfied lives. Unfulfilled lives. Lives that havent found meaning. If you've found meaning in your life, you dont want to go back. You want to go forward. You want to see more, do more.

In the beginning of life, when we are infants, we need others to survive. And at the end of life, when you're dying, you need others to survive. But here's the secret: in between, we need others as well.

As long as we can love each other, and remember the feeling of love we had, we can die without ever really going away. All the love you created and the memories are still there. You live on - in the hearts of everyone you have touched and nurtured while you were here.

im back

2006-07-17T20:22:00.000-04:00

"Now I know that our world is no more permanent than a wave rising on the ocean. Whatever our struggles and triumphs, however we may suffer them, all too soon they bleed into a wash, just like watery ink on paper." - Sayuri [Memoirs of a Geisha]

after a couple of horrible days, im finally back to my old self again. during those days, i've thought of a lot of things.. making sure that im considering each and every posibilities. i came up with a decision and it may not be the BEST and RIGHT thing to do, but i followed my heart over my mind. crazy eh?!? i think so too. lol.

anyweyz. i just wanted to thank everybody who helped me tremendously. people who tried their best to cheer me up. thanks for all the advices and support. it will take me years to mention all your names but u know who u are. im so lucky to have all of you in my life. LOVE YOU GUYS!! =]

period of silence

2006-07-15T00:52:00.000-04:00

*period of silence, soul-searching and self-healing*

I feel like a child sitting on the edge of a cliff trying to look beyond life but failed for all I see is the sea, wide and empty.

love - hate

2006-07-13T20:48:00.000-04:00

have u ever met a person who looks exactly like someone u know. well, not really alike alike but the way they talk and the way they do stuff remind you of that someone u know. hhhmm.. but instead of being happy, you end up being lonelier since that person also reminded u that it's only through others you'll see that someone again. *sigh*

anyweyz. we had our first test this morning and i actually finished early. it was not because it was easy, it was because i thought we only have an hour to finish the test. so what i did was i paced myself. but then i found out like after gym that we were actually allowed to stay up t0 2 hours. i felt so bad!! i dont know if i did good since i kind of rushed some stuff. but oo wellz. i just wish ill pass.

i finished the test at 11 so yeah, tiffany and I went around the city to find a place where we could eat something different. we went all the way down to madison av and found a deli and had some california rolls. sushi!!!! i used to hate them but now is a different story. lol. since we still have like an hour before our next class, we stopped by madison square park to get some shakes. she got some black and white shake and a caramel shake for myself. they're both good by the way.

*update - 1:10 am*
"WE LIE to OURSELVES because the TRUTH.. the TRUTH freakin HURTS!"
I wanna yell and be mad but i just cant. I wanna cry and pour out everything but something is just stopping me and telling me that it's not even worth it. But until when can I keep this!?!? Until when can i hold on?!?!? No matter what I do, no matter what i think and no matter how many times i try to move on... I JUST FREAKIN' CANT.

It takes a second for us to lie to ourselves. We choose to deny some things because if we choose not to, we will need a BIGGER DEAL of strength to accept the truth than to tell ourselves that everything's alright. Sometimes, we just have to put on a mask and be happy in order for us to go on with our lives. If we dont, we will not be able to keep up with life and eventually fail in the end. FAIL as if you feel like there's NO REASON to LIVE at all.

I am feeling this again and HONESTLY, I HATE THIS FEELING. They say we live life not knowing what's gonna happen next but isnt NOT KNOWING THE WORST FEELING in the world!?!?

soundtrack

2006-07-10T22:45:00.000-04:00

i just finished backing up my files. well not all of them, only the series grey's anatomy. i got totally addicted to it. even its soundtrack drives me nuts! songs mostly classic + indie + alternative. 16 more episodes to go and ill be waiting for the next season. this series is highly recommended. some are really revealing though in the sense that ull see "nasty" stuff. if you are not into blood and definitely not a fan of hospitals.. forget what i just said. haha.

i just watched the movie walk the line yesterday and i think it was really good. the soundtrack especially was definitely an A+. reese and joaquin, the guy who played johnny cash, are really good singers. their songs just struck me. CLASSIC but REALLY GOOD! this movie's soundtrack definitely proved that CLASSICS are better than the ones we have today. it's not that i dont like our generation's music coz trust me, im a total fan. but listening to classic ones is just like experiencing the real music with real meaning.

anyweyz. class today went by fast. thank god. lol. oo wellz, im happy it did. =]

fun!

2006-07-08T23:23:00.000-04:00

what a day. i had FUN! MUCHO! yeah.. as in MUCHO MUCHO! lol. =]

hangout

2006-07-07T23:41:00.000-04:00

summer class is keeping me busy right now. i dont mind the subject at all since it's math, but i just cant take the SUPER LONG homeworks everyday and yeah i have to stay in my seat for 2 hours and 10 minutes. oo wellz. at least im enjoying my extra co. i have volleyball tuesdays and thursdays and yeah im starting to like yoga now. i have it mondays and wednesdays. at first, i thought yoga was non-sense and doesnt really count as a physical activity. but i was wrong. yoga is actually relaxing and im not having a lot of back pains now. hhhmmm.. positions are hard though. but my favorite position is SAVASANA or the corpse position. lol. well i guess u can imagine how corpse are so yeah i like that one best. lmao

after class, i went to hang out with justin, marifelle, han, kristina and emely. but i spent most of the time with justin. went crazy with clothes and sales. but i didnt buy anything though. kept changing my mind. lol. i had fun esp at the food court. old women were talking about us. lmao. but at least we all had fun and i think i deserved that one great break after 3 days of school. =]

i added a comment box btw. go try it. lol

BTW.. these are the status messages of people who are hyper basically. lol

friends for keeps

2006-07-04T22:11:00.000-04:00

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!!

amazing fireworks btw. didnt see them upclose but yeah they were really great!they remind me of the ones i saw at sentosa (singapore) when i was about 8. but they were just waters with lights though. oo wellz, they are both colorful and cool for me. lol.

i just saw this in polin's friendster. i was actually touched by the picture's caption.

-friends ill keep all my life-

im tired and first day tomorrow. so yeah. im out. =]

six flags

2006-07-03T23:44:00.000-04:00

i got tanned not because i went to the beach and i lost some calories not because i exercised... i just went to six flags!=]

this day was really great! i had tons of fun although the heat was crazy. we thought the day will turn out ok since we were expecting some rain showers. but it didnt rain at all. well that part is a hooray since they might have closed it instead.

well anyweyz. it was frustrating at first since all the major rides weren't running at all. it was not until like 11 something when like two to three of them started working. king da ka was closed and yeah, as expected, the new el torro ride was full of people. but i guess they closed it anyweyz. crap. i guess i have to wait for the next time.

so tired but everything was all worth it! amazing 1 1/2 trip to NJ although we missed our exit and was this close ---- to getting lost. and yeah the trip back home was crazy. thanks to my dear cousins who stole my ipod and used it in their car. thank you guyz. lol.

bon voyage to kuya george!! pasalubong from china ok? lol. =]

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

2006-07-01T01:05:00.000-04:00

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
-Alexander Pope

can we erase memories? is it even possible to do such thing? do we have the technology for it? so far, i've only seen memory deletion in the movies 'paycheck' and 'eternal sunshine of the spotless mind'. i was actually intrigue by the latter. the story line was interesting and for the last half part of the movie, only one question lingered in my mind.. is memory deletion the answer in order for us to move on with our lives?

the whole story was about how a couple had their memories removed to basically forget each other. they had a good relationship before but then time came when both of them just got sick and hated each other. they broke up and the girl was the first one who had her memories with the guy removed. when the guy found out, he didnt hesitate and did the same thing. in the middle of the procedure, the guy actually tried to quit and had it stop but unfortunately he wasnt able to.

but is it really necessary to do such thing? do we really have to forget someone in order to move on with our lives? i mean, memories with that someone were not all bad werent they? im sure there were more happy ones than the bad ones. arent should we be thankful for those memories and for the things that happened to us since our experiences actually shape who we are right now? why do we have to choose to forget those memories instead of treasuring them? i think pretending those things didnt happen is worse than trying to get through those bad times in our lives.

despite of the fact that the couple had each other removed from their memories, they still ended up being together at the end of story. after only a few hours, they met each other for the second time, of course they dont have any clue who is who, and yet fell for each other again. they both found out what happened but that wasnt the important part, it was the fact that although the brain forgets, the heart does not.

moving on isnt easy. trust me in this, i know the feeling. besides nobody said it's gonna be easy. but in the process, we should always remember that with each person we meet, each action we do and each stuff we experience, they are already part of our memories. we carry those memories wherever we go and it's not easy to just leave them in one place. forgeting them will just leave a big hole in our lives we might find hard to fill in for each one of them are unique in sizes... depending on how deeply they touched our lives.

waiting

2006-06-29T22:32:00.000-04:00

WAITING..

i spent almost 80% of my day waiting today. i waited for the train, the time, the orientation to start, for people, for my schedule, ID picture taking, for the rain to stop, and for the train again. it's just a mystery to me why we tend to get tired more waiting than when we are actually doing something.

i think we actually spend at least 80% of our lives waiting. we wait for everything, for our buses, trains, test results, medical results and all kinds of results, food to get cooked, wait for the product we ordered online, wait for our sibling to finish taking a shower (lol) and yeah wait for a special someone. but what actually pushes us to wait. like what if we ran out of patience or worse we dont have one?? what will happen to us? will things work differently? what if there's no such thing as WAITING? is there still life ahead of us?

the college now orientation in baruch college wasnt that bad. i got to meet new friends mostly from brooklyn tech high. most of the students were from brooklyn tech, stuyvesant, and bronx science which are the best high schools in NY. smart kids they are. felt little intimidated but oo wellz, who cares if i turn out the dumbest kid in the program. as long as i get the 3 precal and calculus college credits, ill be good. =] the classes are starting july 5th. good luck to me! =]

i started watching grey's anatomy and i think the first episode was awesome. being an intern isn't a joke. i cant imagine myself being one after med school. arrgghh. cross fingers.

senior!

2006-06-28T23:17:00.000-04:00

im OFFICIALY SENIOR today!

yep yep! after years of waiting, im finally a SENIOR. hooray!

today was report card day and at first i was pretty nervous coz i was worried about the physics regents. but i did pass it! despite the fact that i didnt study much for it, i still passed! overall, i did ok in all my classes. just got a 65 for gym class. lmao. well it doesnt really count so whatever. lol.

im so proud of myself. i got through junior year without killing myself. lol. like i didnt OD. there were pressures here and there, but i was able to handle everything. *pat on the shoulders* lol.

i know the first semester of senior year will be hard but if i was able to handle a whole year of PRESSURE, why not this one. besides, i probably get a SENIORITIS. i will not care at all since the ranking is only based on junior year. so yeah. senior year here i come!

after i received my report card, i went to hang-out outside school first with friends. i had fun and yeah i got to see people! after only a few days of not seeing them, i already missed them so much! all i can do was to hug them really tight. lol. FRIENDS are really great gifts from God. =] the guards asked us to leave so yeah we went to hang-out at the mall. i had mucho fun! =]

don't let

2006-06-28T00:46:00.000-04:00

Don't let other living souls refrain us from enjoying life. Either live as if they don't exist or notice our lives transform into a life of discontent and isolation.

new myspace layout!

half living

2006-06-26T01:06:00.000-04:00

I was living only half in Gion; the other half of me lived in my dreams of going home. This is why dreams can be such dangerous things: they smolder on like a fire does, and sometimes consume us completely. - Chiyo - Memoirs of a Geisha

i think that excerpt is self-explanatory. i can actually prove that it is true coz i myself experienced such feeling. *sigh*

below is a beautiful artwork Ronel and I made through yahoo! scribbler. haha.

aren't we so artistic? spongebob has never been drawn as lively as this before. haha.

living our lives

2006-06-25T01:04:00.000-04:00

LIVE your LIFE everyday as if there is NO TOMORROW!

simple statement but very powerful..

come and go

2006-06-23T00:58:00.000-04:00

* People do come and go. They just come into our lives and eventually influenced the way we see the world. After some time, they stopped talking to us but we were still hoping to have those nice and open conversations back. They eventually got tired of us and left us alone. They hurt us i know, but it hurts more if those people are already part of our lives who we know we cant easily let go of.*

For some reason, I thought tonight will be so empty and boring. But thanks to a friend who kept me company and made this night the opposite of what i thought it would be. Thank You so much. =]

new layout for my other blog. New sketches coming soon. I decided to make one each week.

food

2006-06-20T23:38:00.000-04:00

another day passed and i havent done any studying yet. i just cant get out of this vacation mode that im on. well good luck to me. i know i need to study but i just cant. crap.

i've been eating a lot of junk lately which im not supposed to be doing. just becoz of some digestion problems. i cant help myself. i love eating and food is my life. i just cant understand why people are trying to starve themselves just to lose some weight. everytime i hear people doing that, i feel really bad for them. they should consider themselves lucky because they can still eat whatever food they want to. but yet they dont eat at all. im not allowed to eat certain types of foods now but i still do eat them coz i thnk food is one of the best stuff here on earth. if only i could eat everything again without breaking rules. *sigh*

im still craving for that same red ribbon strawberry cheesecake that i was talking about. it does not only bring a lot of memories but it also tastes good. kind of being like in heaven. hehe.

i just observed how some people can be really insensitive. it's just an observation so dont get me wrong. just basing it on personal experience.

I just dont get it why people call the UP (university of the philippines) students ISKO and ISKA. unlike lasalista (lasalle) or atenista (ateneo), ISKO and ISKA is just far from the name of the school. just wondering. they should have named the lasalistas as RICH SPOILED KIDS, atenistas as THE SMART ASS, and for UP as NAKED PEOPLE??? haha. just because they are famous for the "Oblation run" or whatever u call that. lol.

cheesecake

2006-06-19T22:46:00.000-04:00

this day is really tiring but fun.. =]

i got to eat strawberry cheesecake today. my favorite!! memories. *sigh* i miss that red ribbon strawberry cheesecake that we used to have.

i found a rolling stone and the beatles old cds. they're awesome. the beatles' songs are somehow familiar since our school principal always play those type of songs during change of periods. well anyweyz. i still think that the songs are great.

physics regents is coming.. and i havent studied yet. crap. ill fail that and fail the class too. poor me.

nothing else to say. =]

asian or pacific islander?

2006-06-18T23:45:00.000-04:00

asian or pacific islander?

my friend ronel and i had this arguement regarding the issue of how should filipinos consider themselves as.. ASIANS OR PACIFIC ISLANDERS?

PACIFIC ISLANDERS - refers to people having origins from any of the indigenous peoples of Hawaii, Guam, Samoa, or other Pacific Islands. It includes people who indicated their race or races as "Native Hawaiian", "Guamanian or Chamorro", "Samoan", or "Other Pacific Islander", or wrote in entries such as Tahitian, Mariana Islander, or Chuukese.

ASIANS - used to indicate people from south and east parts of Asia -- typically South Asia (India, Sri Lanka, Nepal, Pakistan, Bangladesh, Bhutan, Maldives), East Asia (China, Japan, Taiwan, Korea, Mongolia), or Southeast Asia (Brunei, Cambodia, Indonesia, Laos, Myanmar, Malaysia, Philippines, Singapore, Thailand, Vietnam).

the text above was taken from wikipedia.org. in the same site, it clearly stated that..

Inhabitants of the Chinese, Taiwanese, Japanese, Philippine, and Indonesian islands, although technically located in the Pacific Ocean, are not considered Pacific Islanders and are classified as "Asians" on the U.S. Census.Inhabitants of the Chinese, Taiwanese, Japanese, Philippine, and Indonesian islands, although technically located in the Pacific Ocean, are not considered Pacific Islanders and are classified as "Asians" on the U.S. Census.

so there it is. our question has just been answered by wikipedia.

all this time, i've been considering myself as pacific islander and not as asian. this is due to a lot of stereotypes who think that the only asians are the chinese people. im not being a racist or something but how stupid is that? ok yes i dont know who is who in the latin american continent neither the people in europe, but come to think of it. asia is a really big continent, u wouldnt just say that only chinese people occupy that freaking big space. they might have the half of the world's population but i still think that saying such thing is really being naive.

this question has been raised by my cousin a million times and i know for the fact that im an asian and i should consider myself asian. but i dont think i can consider myself asian as long as those stereotypes exist. stop trying to speak in chinese whenver u see my kind coz we're not chinese.. we are filipinos! fyi.. indians, middle eastern people and even some russians are considered asians too.

anyweyz, enough with that identity crisis. lol. i think today was fun. spent the day with the whole family. tiring but yeah it was all worth it!!

i hate it when people takes advantage of you and just starts to act as if nothing happened. there are some situations in which we cant just bring back the old times. once an antique acquires cracks due to accidents, it will never and cannot have its original value.

RONEL! thanks! i really had a good time tonight. i laughed my ass off u homo. haha. peace pare. laters.

bothered

2006-06-17T23:44:00.000-04:00

something is just bothering me right now. i have like a lot of questions in my head that i dont know if i will be able to find the answers for them. well i dont know. my new sketch basically says everything.

happy father's day to my dad and to my dear brother! i love you both so much. and to all my titos and friends' dads, happy fathers day!

stayed home

2006-06-17T00:56:00.000-04:00

i just stayed home today. it wasnt that bad though.

my dad and i went to the bank so i can open my savings account. hhhmm.. he said it will help me not to spend my money on useless stuff. yah right! lol. anyweyz. after that, we went food shopping.

i basically spent the rest of the day sleeping, watching, eating and yeah talking to friends online. i esp enjoyed talking to this new friend i met last day of school. got to hang out with him becoz of another friend. lolz.

old stuff: i started sketching again. i havent uploaded the one that i finished though. but i put the one that i drew for pat.

new stuff: because of my big fascination to german culture, im starting to learn the german language. yep! it's fun. ill teach u as soon as i master it. well that's like 10 yrs from now. lol. i also downloaded some new albums like secondhand serenade, the fold, daphne loves derby, hit the lights, so they say and quietdrive. i esp like quietdrive and secondhand serenade. oo btw. try listening to angels and airwaves. they are awesome. ull probably recognize the vocals. coz their vocals used to be the vocalist of blink-182. yep yep. to all blink 182 fans, i think ull like their album.

beyond life's imperfections

2006-06-15T22:26:00.000-04:00

yesterday was our last day!! yay! ronel, im done! lol. it will be ur turn soon! vacation vacation!

anyweyz. i got out of school early yesterday. i went to hang-out with jae, amy and the raiders. it was fun. i got to learn how to play real handball. haha. thanks jae. owe u one there.

today i took the math b regents. hated it. made a lot of stupid mistakes for not reading the questions well. hhhmmpp. i hate when that happens. but im glad i got over with it. i went to the room without knowing all that proofs. haha. i dont really care though as long as i pass it. \m/ one more regent to go and junior year will be history. yay!

as i continue living, i realize that i should be proud of how i was able to get through all the difficulties. despite all the stress, people treating me badly, and emotional dramas, i can say that i can look back on those things with pride and a smile on my face. it's not easy to look beyond all life's imperfections i know. but being happy doesnt mean everything should be perfect. being happy just means that we chose to look beyond the imperfections. at my age, im sure ill still experience tons of imperfections, but i know that i can get through them. i dont have to worry how many times I fell, for in every fall that I experienced, I got up with life lessons to take along with me in this endless journey called life.

* PAT!! Click here for the surprise i told you. hope u like it. =]*

new stuff: pictures at my multiply and new music in my boom box. i like the lyrics of this one. =]

mixed emotions

2006-06-13T20:53:00.000-04:00

what a day.. a lot of things happened today and i really cant explain what im feeling right now.

first. took my finals for both american and math. the american was ok but im pretty sure i had like two to three wrong answers. i felt horrible for math. teacher who made the test made it really hard. crap. i think i failed it. waaahhh... the ap bio finals was cancelled btw. so happy!!

second. today is pretty much the last day coz it's sure that only few students will come tomorrow. last day = goodbye. goodbye especially to all the seniors. to steph, emelyn, jamie, jason, nico, david, kristen, flora, pamela, and to all my senior friends, i will miss you guys mucho!!! it's been great knowing you all and i hope ull have an incredible college life!

third. still goodbye to my friends and classmates but it's not that sad coz we're
still gonna see each other on september. have a great summer guys but im still hoping that we'll still see each other tomorrow!! =]

fourth. sometimes it's just so unfair how people treat u esp when you are just trying to live your life and you're just being yourself all this time. *sigh*

fifth. im so happy !!! haha. u dont have to know. it's private! lmao

sixth. i forgot to say GOOD LUCK to all my friends who started their college lives last monday and the weeks before that. lol. i miss u all!! =]

seventh. i uploaded all today's pictures in http://punkndisoderly.multiply.com. more to come tomorrow.

last. POLIN!! ill have my revenge soon!! haha. i miss you and let's keep the testimonials flowing!! haha. COI!! where are you girl? wla na c burnik! lmao. TRISH!! your highness! how's college? enjoy k noh? lol. RONEL!! few more days left for you!! yay!! vacation vacation!! =] ANON! thanks. so far it's going great.!! =] EMO BOY!! i know and u know i love u for that! =]

who knew

2006-06-12T22:15:00.000-04:00

last day of finals tomorrow and last night of studying tonight. bwahaha!!

i cant wait till i take my last test tomorrow which is the essay part of bio. i still dont know anythin but hey i still have at least 13 hours left to know at least one thing right? haha. i still have math and american finals too before i take the ap bio final. hhhmmm. should i do the eenie-meenie-minie-moe since both are multiple choice. lol. =]

i ended up saying something today which i'm worried of coz i'm not really sure of what's gonna happen tomorrow. im a little scared but yeah i had to admit what im feeling right? im taking my chances this time coz i know deep down that i need to
move on.

i just wish u know how much i tried but i guess the best thing to do is to let go for now and let our fate bring us back together.

for now i wanna say goodbye to my past and hello to this new chapter that im opening in my life. wish me luck guys. =]

new song in boombox: related to this post

complexity

2006-06-11T00:21:00.000-04:00

i just finished watching this short movie or should i say documentary about this counter-strike team called compLexity or col in short. hhhmm.. why did i get so interested about counter-strike?

about two weeks ago, i found out that counter-strike is a freakin online sport. take note.. it is a SPORT. wow i know. it's just so interesting to know coz i only heard about counter-strike since a lot of my friends play it after school or during weekends. they like go everywhere just to play. for me, counter-strike is just a past time or leisure for teenagers who dont have anything to do after school. or even like a way for them to hang-out with friends. but after i watched the movie, i was just shocked and amazed at the same time of how people put a lot of time, effort and money to this. this is serious business people.

well i like to thank my friend jae for giving me this movie. it's really mind opening and very interesting too. thanks thanks! =]

anyweyz. i spent the entire day at the mall with my mom and sisters. fun fun fun! =]

new layout

2006-06-09T23:55:00.000-04:00

NEW LAYOUT!!

i finally finished doin this layout. i've been planning to have this layout since last month. it's just that i dont have the time to do it. but now, since we only have 3 more days left, i can do anything! well yeah. this layout just shows my musical side. yeah i play instruments here and there, but my most favorite is the guitar. with it i can play any song i like not unlike the piano, which has very complicated music sheets. so yeah. music is a big part of my life and it do really help me relax. it's just with me wherever i go, whether im on the bus, at home, chatting or even washing the dishes.lol. music is with me. can't leave without it. Life seems so perfect when the music plays.

well anyweyz. i only have 4 more finals to do. all of them are the second part finals. the first part finals in all my classes werent that bad. i did ok in everything. im really really happy!! yay!!

3 more days guys and junior year will be history. well not really coz the final report card day marks the end of the year. oo wellz.. it's soon! i just wanna get over with the last finals i have and the two regents that i have to take!

I just wanna share this email my friend sent me. the message is really nice and moving too. if you have time.. read it. it's all worth the time.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.!

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

rain rain go away

2006-06-07T22:42:00.000-04:00

it was raining really hard when i left the house at 6:10. i came back from school and it was still raining like a bitch. not a good day for me. the rain sucked my energy for the whole day and just made me exhausted. rain sucks!

june 4, sunday:
went to the filipino parade. it was my first time to go since no one in my family has been interested in attending the parade. i went with twinners marifelle. we were supposed to meet up at the mall at 11. but the buses were running late coz it was a sunday. so yeah 11 became 12:45? lol. we almost got lost coz we forgot to transfer to a different train goin to the opposite direction. lol. we also saw a lot of flips along the way esp at the subway. we also met a flip who's actually a senior in our school. thanks to him we got to the place like in no time. the parade already started when we came. a lot of people were there. met some friends, relatives and schoolmates too. twinners said that this year's parade isn't that good compare to last year's. it's just that we have a better weather this year. anyweyz. i think it was ok bcoz first of all, the bands who played weren't that great. but i got to eat halo-halo!! how awesome was that huh? lol. anyweyz. we left around 3 something. got home safe though the bus that i was on was hit at its back by a car. i didnt get scared, it was more on a reaction of "hey, ill be late for church!!" lol.

june 5, monday:
olympic sports challenge day. it was supposed to be last friday, but since it was really raining hard last friday, they had to cancel it. well anyweyz, the sports challenge served as a fund raising for our schoolmate who had an accident recently. he's my friend's brother. in order to raise money, we had to buy tickets to either play or just watch. we chose to play volleyball. my team was just a random team. drafted from nowhere. lol. but we actually did good in the end coz we won second! we lost from the JV team. lmao. i had fun too btw. it's another twinner day for me and marifelle and yeah it was a way to relax from the finals. thanks twin, eglind, laixin and hun! we're the best team ever!

june 6, tuesday:
math finals day. crap!! i did many stupid questions!lmao

june 7, today:
like what i said, it's raining really hard and im losing my energy becoz of that. had 2 finals today too, spanish and physics. both were ok but not that ok ok. lol.
i went straight home right after i had my last class which is physics.

no school tomorrow. it's supposed to be brooklyn-queens day, but the teachers under their new contacts named it teacher development blah blah. lol. but yeah, thanks for that we have a day off! =]

goodbye SAT!

2006-06-04T00:16:00.000-04:00

i finally finished all the SATs i have to take this year. i took bio and math this morning and they were both alright. a score of 500 and up will be fine for me as long as not 200. lol.

i finished around 11:30 and went straight home to eat lunch. my sister and i went to forest hills to pick up this cd for our baby niece brea. it was raining pretty hard but we still enjoyed a BLT, chocolate and mocha fudge shakes at johnny rockets. amazing food they have there. i like the place too ever since i first went in there a year ago. they have this oldies and 50s theme. even their songs are familiar too coz our school principal plays those type of old music every change of periods. only him and the other old teachers and subs know all the songs he plays. lol. but honestly, some of the songs are actually good and interesting. =]

it was still raining like a b***h when we left forest hills. but both of us had fun. sister bonding! =]

we had dinner in my aunt's place coz she has a little party for it is her and her husband's wedding anniversary. i didnt ask how many years now coz that might reveal their real ages! *wink wink* lol

- New song in my boombox. I like postal service a lot. their songs are mostly a combination of alternative + electronica. they sound awesome! pay attention to the lyrics too. i really like it.

anyweyz. goin goin. sleepy. =]

baby pamangkin

2006-05-27T23:15:00.000-04:00

this post is especially for my brother's new baby: BABY PAMANGKIN BREANNA. she was born last thursday 10 something philippine time. im so excited to see her next year.

pictures

2006-05-25T22:56:00.000-04:00

pictures do worth million words

they preserve memories

they make us laughs whenever we see those crazy ass poses and smiles

they cause eyes to tear whenever we see the good old times

they make things feel better

they can turn a really bad day into a whole new great one

they remind us of how things aren't always bad and

through pictures, we can again take a glimpse of the person we longed to see

mcphee didnt win =[

2006-05-24T23:29:00.000-04:00

taylor won! hhhmm.. im not a "soul patrol" fan, but i think he really deserves the title. i wanted mcphee to win though. oo wells.. whatever. =]

since we dont do anythin in ap bio now, our teacher just assigned one last reserach project for us. he gave each one of us laptop to work on our researches. it was fun!!.. coz i was just playing and surfin. sssshhh.. well i guess my teacher knew that almost everybody wasnt doing work, he just didnt care. lol. ill probably do my part this weekend.=]

i've been stayin at the day care till 5pm since monday of this week. i had to make up 10 hours and 45 minutes of volunteer work. i missed 3 weeks and an hour 45 min last week. so far i made up almost half of it. i only need 5 hours and 10 min. lol. im tired.

tomorrow will be the last key club meeting! hurray!! we're having a party! another hurray!! =] lol.

im out of here. im just so tired and no energy left for the rest of the week.

countdown

2006-05-17T22:43:00.000-04:00

noticed my countdown? lol. yeah. im really excited. but u know what's totally awesome? without including the weekends, we only have like 16 more days to go! HELL YEAH!! i'll really really really kill for that 16 days man. lol. anyweyz, on the negative side, during those 16 days, i have 2 day finals in every class that i have + projects will be all due before june + SAT II is comin really fast + regents is just right under our noses and finally + college crap for our college folder is due soon. darn. can i do all of those stuff in 16 days? hhhmm.. "I'll die in 16 days!" lmao.

anyweyz, got home from school like around 9:20. we had a college fair and yeah i had the chance to talk to college representatives. these college crap are scaring the hell out of me. what if i dont get accepted in the colleges i wanna go to? awww.. poor me. im stil not sure which colleges i wanna apply in to. =[

saturday, i went to my friend justin's 17th birthday! we had a small backyard party and i think it was fun. marifelle and i left his house like around 6:30 and it was drizzling. good thing i didnt get sick. we stopped by the mall to buy our moms at least a mothers day card. there were a lot of people though.

monday and tuesday, i got the chance to disect a fetal pig in my AP bio class. i think it was awesome! got to see the brain and internal organs of a pig. but what i hate about it was the smell. the scent of formaldehide really turned me off and gave me headache. i felt bad for the baby pig too! the pictures are in my multiply site, but i warn you coz the pictures are really disturbing and all. so just make sure u dont have a weak stomach and u like looking at disgusting things! lmao.

food food food

2006-05-12T23:47:00.000-04:00

i indulged myself with food today

since i experienced a really bad stomach pain for 4 days, i gave myself a treat today by eating whatever my little tummy desires.

after the premed meeting, ronald and i went to subway to go get something to eat. i filled myself with Italian BMT with mayo and honey mustard. dajoo (ronald.. lol) ate this 12 inch chicken teriyaki in less than 5 minutes. wasn't that unbelievable. i ate my 6inch for like 10 minutes. lol. anyweyz. dajoo take it easy next time. i feel bad for the sub. lmao

anyweyz. right after that we both took the 17 and went home. after dinner, my cousins came and yeah they wanna go somewhere. so we went to Coldstone. crap. i ate caramel turtle temptation. that was awesome man. caramel is my b***h!! lmao. anything with caramel is good as heaven!=]

YAY!!!

2006-05-09T16:52:00.000-04:00

everything is over! YAY!! well not really everything. just this month's scheduled tests. i still have to take SAT subject tests for Biology and Math on June 3. it's still far i know. but watch the days pass like a crazy wind mill. lol

the AP Bio test yesterday went by so slow. i had to stay in my seat for 4 hours. i finished early so i took a nap for like an hour. lol. it was around 11:30 when the test was finally over. the first thing i said was a big YES!! and YAY!! lol.

after the test i was supposed to stay in the library and wait for my physics class and physics lab but i decided to go outside and buy something. i wasnt cutting school olright? lol. we were excused so it doesnt matter. well anyweys. when i was outside i saw my friend steph who took the test too. she was waiting for my other friend emelyn so i decided to hang out with her. then two of my other friends jason and ronald came. we were on our way to get food when my friends' friends came and decided to play handball. so yeah. we went to the park near PS 117 to play handball. the teachers kicked us out though after like 40 minutes. but it was still fun. we just went to get chinese food after.

i went back to school for physics lab. since i have the same teacher for physics, i asked her if i could take the quiz that i missed. she said yes. so i took it. the quiz was olright. right justin? lol

anyweyz. went to the daycare after. stayed there for an hour and 20 minutes and went straight home.

it was tiring but yeah i had fun.

my stomach pain is killing me right now. and i have to miss school tomorrow coz i have to go to the hospital for the xray thing. well. it's one day off from school. so it's not that bad. but my stomach is just being a pain in my ***.

*im shouting back*
audrey: miss you too!!=]
ronel: thank you ronel! i think i did really bad. maybe the STAR thing that you guys have is REGENTS for us. i hate it. i have to take two this june for physics and math. anyweyz. good luck din sau!!
mcoy: hey! long time no talk! lol. msta? anyweyz.. i think i did really bad on my SATs. but i still have another chance next october. so i need to work hard for it this time or else i end up in a crappy college. lol. kw? how's everything? anong bago! cyah online!=]
polz: oi polz! i cant wait too. kung maaga lng natpos ung test ko ppunta sna kita tpos ssmahan ko kau airport. kso wla eh. nung lumabas ako nasa airport n pla kau. well anyweyz. ill cyah next yr db? db? hehe. take care n lng ha!! miss na kita agad! lagi akong nppdaan dun s place nyo. hehe. talk to you online!=]

almost over

2006-05-07T23:29:00.000-04:00

hell week is almost over. i got rid of the SAT yesterday. it was horrible btw. had a terrible headache and i almost quit during the test. it was 4 hours long. the math section wasn't that bad except for the really hard and stupid questions. for writing, i actually finished my essay within the 25 minute limit. but im not sure if i actually wrote a good arguement. lmao. oo wellz. the hardest part of the test was the reading/vocab section. the vocab i memorized just went poop out of my head and the i didnt understand anythin in the given passages. i probably did bad. but oo wellz, i still have another chance next october. i need to work hard for it i know.

tomorrow is the AP test. since the SAT "trauma" is still with me, i didnt bother to study for tomorrow's test. besides, i dont really care if i dont get the college credit. ill just take it again in college where i can actually learn something. lol.

still have to attend physics and physics lab after the test since i have a quiz in physics class and i dont wanna miss lab coz it's just gonna mess up my schedule for the whole week.

hhhmm.. i cant wait till the school year ends!

*im shouting back*
pat & arik: hey guyz! miss you na pareho!!
mina: yeah. soon!! tc din kau dyan!

hell week

2006-05-01T23:45:00.000-04:00

- SAT on saturday and AP Bio test on monday -

im cramming everything this week. crap. im tired and so much in trouble. waaaahhh..

but im glad it's olready may. i cant wait till i take my last regents and say goodbye to junior yr!!

as for now. i have to go and work my ass off.

can somebody get me coffee pls? a caramel Macchiato from starbucks would be awesome=]

*im shouting back*
tatin: intay k namin dito. bilis lrga na! miss you!
audrey: miss you too girl! =]

goodbye spring break =[

2006-04-23T22:38:00.000-04:00

the week went by really fast. whhhyyyy?

i refuse to go to school but i know i dont have a choice but to go. crap.

oo wellz. according to my friend's countdown, we have exactly 1 month : 2o days : 1 hour : 20 min : 25 sec left till the school ends! woohooo!!! i cant wait!=]

i have to do last minute works. darn it.

dead people's buttholes are hairy.. lmao.

2006-04-19T01:49:00.000-04:00

spent the whole day with polz! we talked like there's no next time. talk talk talk.. this is what people do when they didnt see each other for two long years. lol

i had to wait for her for like 2 hours. but it was all worth it in the end.

i really had fun! seriously man. things we did: mall, talked, walked around, marshalls, walked around again, talked, subway, the bodies (had fun with those dead people's hairy butt holes. lol), south street seaport, talked again, walked, ground zero, subway, 34th st in manhattan, banana caramel crunch courtesy of coldstone.lol, walked, time square, more stories, wait, and subway.

thanks polz! we still have a couple of days to spend together. so better get urself used to seeing my fugly face around again. lmao. =]

ice age 2

2006-04-16T23:41:00.000-04:00

Happy Easter!!!

watched ice age 2!! that movie killed me! it was hilarious! =]

spring break dude!!

2006-04-13T22:22:00.000-04:00

SPRING BREAK!!! woohooo!!!

01:02:03 04/05/06

2006-04-08T11:05:00.000-04:00

04.01 april fools day
my friend scared the hell out of me when he fooled me that the empire state building was attacked. since i forgot that it was fools day, i tremendously looked for the latest news all over the web. crap. that got me so scared man.

04.05
01:02:03 04/05/06
yep. last wednesday at two minutes and three seconds after 1:00 in the morning that was the time and date. wasnt that cool. it wont gonna happen again in our lifetime. pretty awesome huh?

04.06

saw this very unusual guy who was wearing this funny looking costume. hhhmm.. we didnt know if he went to a costume party or that's just the way he dress up. i cant get him to look at the camera. i was too shy to ask. lol.

04.07 battle of the bands
crap. i wasnt able to come last night coz it was supposed to start at 7:30 and end at around 10-11. 12 bands competed. a lot of my friends joined and crap i didnt see them play. oo wellz.. there's always a next yr.

today
it's been raining all day. crap.

the end of another chapter

2006-04-02T23:29:00.000-04:00

first things first..

congrats dlsl batch 05-06!

im so happy for you guyz. although im not gonna be in this very special day of your lives, i hope ull always remember that ill olweyz be here for each one of you no matter what. thanks for all the memories, the fun and the laughter that we all shared. i consider those first two years of my hs life there as one of the best and the most memorable one.

yes it's sad knowing that you guys will not see each other as often as before, but the fact the you have all those memories with you will make things more than just fine.

remember, dont cry because it's over.. smile because it happened! =]

congratulations again and i really really miss you all!=]

i was sick yesterday

2006-04-01T23:23:00.000-05:00

a better day than yesterday..

i was pretty sick last night. it all started after gym class. my head starting swirling and twirling like crazy. i thought i was gonna faint while i was taking my spanish test. my headache continued for 4 more periods. i decided to go home early so i basically missed the premed association meeting. my bad luck didnt end there. the bus that i took suddenly stopped for "i dont know" reason. we waited for like half an hour and the worse part was that my head wont stop being a pain in the a**. we were asked to transfer to a different bus. finally after like 20 minutes, i finally got home.

i had a nice rest last night and the tylenol really did help my head to calm down. lol. but it was funny how i woke up early this morning. lol

my sister and i left around 11 this morning to go to the mall. got myself a rolling stone shirt and this brown nollie shirt. i saw this fossil watch that is really cute. hhhmm.. lol. spring is really here. all the shops are full of spring and summer stuff. they are all cute too.

anyweyz. right after that, i went straight to my SAT class. spent 3 hours there. then i went back home.. watched fantastic four with my sisters. and now just chatting with friends. hmmm.. sunday again. i need to do a lot of hw. darn.

still

2006-03-29T21:34:00.000-05:00

Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will.

things to do:

2006-03-25T22:30:00.000-05:00

crap man. i got a lot of stuff to do!

freakin tests are lining up!

waaahhh...

procrastinator

2006-03-24T23:55:00.000-05:00

i hate it when i procrastinate..

-makes my "to do" school works into a pile of two instead of one..

-im having trouble writing my personal statement for college. dude! hate essays! it's due monday btw. shoot me now!

-havent done my hw for SAT prep class. crap. all due tomorrow. grrr..

i really hate procrastinating.. but i really cant help it. shoot me now.. pleease im serious!

oo wellz.. i had a great time last thursday. had a trip at the DNA learning center. ya ya.. i know. but at least i got to get out of school. we just did lab and i think it's really cool. * fact: do u know asian people may be connected to one common ancestor 150,000 years ago. this is due to the presence of ALU in our genes. * haha. i did learn something in that lab. hurray for me! lmao.

got to watch movies today. had a half day. parents-teachers conference. o ow.. im dead. lol. but it's ok, my parents didnt come. another hurray! lmao.

i finally got to eat a belgian waffle! i've been craving for it and a crepe for months now! yummy!

weekend again. hhhmm.. what to do? what to do? PROCRASTINATE? lmao.

spring spring

2006-03-20T22:53:00.000-05:00

spring is here!

my favorite season is finally here. although the weather is still freezin cold, im so happy because everythin is great and the days are kind of short and fast. it's already the 20th and 11 more days till april. we only have like 3months of school left. that's awesome!

everything is good. been busy with a lot of stuff though

i finally got the result for my second pratice SAT. my scores in math and reading part improved and my essay too! now that's amazing!

ooo wellz.. gtg.. a pile of school work is actually waiting for me to at least touch a quarter of it. lmao.

good week

2006-03-16T22:36:00.000-05:00

it's almost friday.. wow!! the week went by super fast and to think it's way better than the last one. so much better. except that i got my scores from last week's tests and i almost failed in all of them. darn it.

tuesday.. had my picture taken for the yearbook and yeah basically for graduation. graduation is way too far from now. i still have to take all those SATs and AP tests, do college applications and a lot of essays. but it seems like it's comin really fast. like it's sayin that i better live as if this is my last year in high school. oo wellz.. since i know i cant stop time, i need to learn to keep up with it.

this is a very good week for me but i feel like there's somethin missin. i just cant figure out what it is and why? hmmm..

anyweyz. ill b really busy this weekend. i know for sure. darn SATs.

new week

2006-03-12T01:32:00.000-05:00

i got through a really bad week. but im glad it's all over. there's always a next one

i havent gotten any descent sleep. that's why yesterday i tried a friend's advice.. take benedryl. it did work though. i got knocked out instantly. well i was supposed to do my hw for the prep class but i jus fell asleep. it was good though.

i found a snuggle buddy! it is really true that there's always a rainbow after a bad rain. lol. you know what i mean. haha

weather is starting to be nice. hhhmm.. spring is comin! yay! cant wait.

bad day.

2006-03-06T23:03:00.000-05:00

bad day.

i dont know how to start over.

i've been trying. but i dont think my effort is enough.

i have to try harder.

i dont wanna be stuck. no.

i hate this feeling.

go batch 05-06

2006-03-04T11:38:00.000-05:00

when all is gone. and you're the only one. when all is swept away. you got nothing to say. leave everything behind. o yea, and focus your mind. what lies in the future. it's either pleasure or torture. but remember how it used to be. your former mates that made you happy. seniors of de la salle lipa batch '05 - '06. let's see what you can do. happy grad mga ka-batch!!! i-pass nio sa lahat ng lasalyanong lalayas na ngayong taong ito!

<*thanks for passing the message to me mates!*>

i want to congratulate all my lasallian friends who will finally take their final steps towards another chapter of their lives. although im not graduating as a lasalian.. guyz.. for the 10 years we spent together.. ill forever cherish and remember u all! thanks for everythin!

go DLSL bath 05-06! good luck to all of you!

my exstatic life

the next step

i got inspired

10 DIFFERENT THINGS ON MY MIND

how could u?

happines - life

decisions

rebirth

Letting go

merry christmas

shocked. stunned. amazed. touched. loved.

CHRISTMAS WISHLIST 2006

the fight.. my fight

where are you?

happy turkey day

the flip pride

a week to remember

rub the hippo's nose for luck

sushi bum

to all my fellow LASALLIANS *updated*

go VIOLETS!

the perfect soundtrack

stomach ache =/

this week is like one of the best..

breaking the silence

friday the 13th

new month + new stuff + old wicked school week

down to 7 choices

better

death came and said hi to me

thank you

Mis cumpleaños =)

the longest week ever

summer 06

live life and make a difference

a week that was

joy and frustration

new layout

brooklyn bridge park

-confuse-

talladega nights

silence

feels awesome

heat wave

truth or dare

there is none

family stuff

a lot of stuff

ym server is down

tuesdays with morrie

im back

period of silence

love - hate

soundtrack

fun!

hangout

friends for keeps

six flags

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

waiting

senior!

don't let

half living

living our lives

come and go

food

cheesecake

asian or pacific islander?

bothered

stayed home

beyond life's imperfections

mixed emotions

who knew

complexity

new layout

rain rain go away

goodbye SAT!

baby pamangkin

pictures

mcphee didnt win =[

to all my fellow LASALLIANS updated